I think I love dreaming... subconciously anyway

In what felt like the longest 1-hour nap I've just had, I dreamt about something related to religion. About how people are willing to give up so many things in life just cause of their faith, just because it requires them to. Anyway, I watched a video clip last night on You-tube, where Russell Peter was interviewed. For all the 'racist' jokes that he's come up with, you'd imagine him to be really insensitive about religions too. But nope, he replied that religion's one issue that he will not go into on in shows because it's just too damned sensitive. What a nice guy.

ps. I feel damned guilty for taking an hour-long nap when I have so many things to hand up tomorrow. Time to get some coffee and get down to work.

Shiqi, here's a mola! :)

Let's get started.

I'm finally done with the 12 VCDs for GTO; I cried and chuckled hard as I watched the last 2 pieces on my laptop, Jap-dramas are so damned good.

Bored.

Now that's a real apple.

Math test is finally over; I only started studying for it last night so let's hope I didn't do too badly. I've been re-watching the damned old-school Jap drama (borrowed from Mingle), GTO, and... I still think it's (Takashi) fucking awesome.

Remember the last time I said no fan girl-ing for me? I take back my words... just for him.

Just cause twitter won't let me post more than 150 characters.

The long weekend is finally over.
Seriously though, what long? not one part felt longer than usual. I'm glad to be back in my room, I've had my share of yummy fries from Carl's Jr (they're the best), skate-sprinted to avoid the rain and I have a 930 class to go to in awhile. My weekend was not too bad, to sum it all up. How was yours?

Bits and Pieces: 14th - 19th Sept 09

Wednesday night: What was supposed to be the windsurfers' Xiao Long Bao dinner-outing became the four of us attending Sports Club's AGM instead. We listened to them round up the past year's event, declare the revenue and expenditure of each sub club, had some light refreshments and chatted a little to the Financial Controllers. We hit Mayflower after, had a beer each, and played some really traumatizing rounds of "Shoot, Shag, Marry".

I'm really thankful we're a great team working together, and we're all enjoying what we are doing at the moment (sans late-night meetings). Love you guys!

My favourite ice-lolly in Singapore, Malaysia and the rest of SE Asia. While waiting at the Quad for the AGM to start.

Sports Club's AGM; the looks on their faces tell it all. Ha. Shiqi must've been thinking about the Xiao Long Baos that we were supposed to be having for dinner.

Titus pouting.

Another one of my bored-shots...

Saturday night: My day started real late; I went back to bed for at least 2 hours after Rodin's morning call. By the time I'd reached ECP, training was over. Brunched, and lunched a second time at Marine Parade's Food Centre. We discovered a new ice-shavings place, and they have really unique flavours; coconut, Yakult, coffee and lavender.

Made arrangements to meet up with Siao and we ended up at Ion; okay it was more like trolling the basement where there was so much food to try.

sticky, chewy rice balls drenched in sweet soya sauce.

awesome-tasting popcorn

black-sesame-flavoured. yums

fishcake. with custard and cinnamon-apple filling.

queuing for Yami Yoghurt.

there were so many people with their DSLRs and tripods trying to take a picture of the place.

when was the last time we took self-shots hur?

Her new, damned-comfy shoes from Cineleisure.

We had a second round of yoghurt ice-cream from Frolick, some Yong Tau Foo and pasta from the food-court too. Why do we eat so much? Anyway, we watched The Ugly Truth too. That's like my first movie, after Harry Potter with Doug in July/August? Cliche and typical as hell but I liked it.

Which is heavier, 1kg of cotton or 1kg of iron?

Because you are not my primary five kid, I'm assuming that you already have the answer in mind. I don't know how we ended up discussing this question when we were doing English and Math instead of Science (in the first place), but he absolutely refused to believe that they weigh the same even after I explained to him the concepts of density and volume. He said that he would write them as equal in exams if he has been taught to do so, but that is not what he believes.

If it's so hard to even change the beliefs of a young child after by proving your ideas with facts and figures, I can't imagine what it'd take to change that of grown-ups like you and I.

Time-travelling.

bored in math tutorial

Contrary to what the title may suggest, nope, it's not about that movie. I was going through my first blogspot's archives and looking back, I am truly appalled that I was capable of doing things such as using "euuuu" in place of "you", adding the unnecessary "z" or "x" at the end of words so they looked a little more cool, and the word "yesh" for "yes". Gosh. I feel super embarrassed now; someone should have shot me back then for such atrociousities. Am keeping the old archives private so no one will ever get to see them again.

Apart from all that terrifying grammar/vocabulary that I'd used in the past, I realized I was a lot more angsty back then too. I don't remember where all that negativity came from; but there was so much of it at one point I was swearing and cursing in every single entry I'd blogged. I seemed to have such a strained relationship with my parents and YF, and I complained about every single thing that was happening in my life; nothing was ever happy enough for me.

Can't describe to you how glad I am now that that phase is over in my life... I think. Reading those past entries made me cringe a lot; I can't believe I said some of the awfully embarrassing things I said, but truth is, I've said them. But reading those entries, made me realize that I've become a little more mature than what I used to be too. It was always about me wanting, and never about what I could give. I never saw things beyond my own perspective, and I took everything I had for granted. Not anymore, at least I hope that's what it's going to be.

Love Note

In times of sorrow and grief,

I will hold you, and rock you,

and take your grief and make it my own.

When you cry, I cry and

when you hurt, I hurt.

And together, we will try to hold back the flood of tears and despair and make it through the potholed streets of life.

I love you, Nicholas!

Let's guess

To the handful of people who visit this online space every now and then,

Let's play a game! Drop a comment but don't tell me who you are, let me guess instead. Give yourself nicknames that will remind me of you, or bring up one distinctive, past memory that you have of me that no one else might have. If I guess correctly, I'll do something nice for you. If not, then I guess I'm just not supposed to know who you are. Let's play!

ps. I'll keep it anonymous!

I need time to pick myself up, to snap out of the shit I'm going through now. It could be 1, 2, or just 5 days, or it could be something like 1, 2 or 5 years. I spent the whole afternoon trying to sleep the sadness away, but I couldn't fall asleep until the tears dried up and my face was sticky. I think karma's slapping me in the face, telling me "Hey bitch, it's your turn now", for how I used to look down upon feelings once upon a time.

All the people I've laughed at, it's your turn to laugh at me now.

Someone hates me

I used to think I wouldn't mind what people think of me, but today, I learnt that I am in fact, very concerned about how people look at me, maybe just some random aspect of me that is. The lexical choices that some people make with regard to me, hurts.

Hate; a word associated with so much negativity, is used to describe how someone feels towards me. Ouch. For someone who smiles to you while you're looking, and then stabbing you in the back when you're not, double ouch.

:(

Fishing Frenzy!

I haven't been downloading iPhone applications for the longest time ever, but I'm so glad I did today. Science lecture was boring and almost put me to sleep; even the tutor admitted he didn't know what he was talking about at different intervals throughout the lecture.

And at times like that, instead of falling asleep, I whipped out my trusty iPhone and began downloading applications faster than the lecturer could go on to the next slide. Not hard to guess which application got me hooked this time round; I was tilting and shaking my iPhone sideways, forward and backward, rocking back and forth trying to fish my way past the first level during lecture.

hard at work okay!

Came back to my room and continued with it.

roomie said she's never seen me so engrossed before ha.

And my hard work paid off! I completed all 12 levels of the game... like after an hour of trying. Okay I know this is a totally pointless entry and I really should be studying instead... but really, it's so fun you should try it and get hooked too!

Oh. I made my own dinner for the first time since the start of the semester. Campbell's Mushroom with Roasted Garlic Soup, paired with mashed-up bits of Hup Seng's sugar crackers. Sounds like a totally odd combination? Tasted like one... but I like it. I always like the oddest things in life.

傻笑

sai-naing at the buffet table with half of KTOWY last Friday evening.

I think it's become sort of like a bi-monthly affair, this Sakae Supper Sushi (wow alliteration!) Buffet thing. Only 4 of us turned up this time round; the rest were either busy with school work, too cash-strapped, or too busy with some other businesses. I liked 4. Apart from eating, we talked about problems in school; the guys just started their first years in university not too long ago and JM's not doing too well, there's probably a lot of getting used to for them. None of them were too used to my new hair; wenyun said I look like a butch, and jm said I look like a preppy Jap boy. I love this bunch a lot, I think. If not, I'd have snapped at them for telling me I look like a boy two times over.

Similans here I come!

No more shopping sprees, no more binge-eating or drinking...

I will save to dive!

So excited!

Are you ready?

I could be optimistic about a million and one things, and yet always remain so skeptical about one particular issue.

The hairdresser over-trimmed my hair and I look like a butch now (yes I do look like one now, in case you're wondering)? It's alright, my hair will grow back. Results aren't as ideal as what I've expected of myself? No worries, I always have the next semester to pull it up. Am not getting the feel of what it's like to plane on the windsurf board? No problem, the wind will pick up in time. Subway's out of my favourite White Chip Macademia Nuts Cookie? It's okay, I can always settle for Chocolate Chip. You get the gist, almost every other thing, except for the big L word.

Love. I feel like I really shouldn't talk about it, because I don't seem to know what's it about anymore... and it's funny how someone who has forgotten all about love, wants to experience it so badly. No?

I generally share different views with the people that I've talked to about this. I still adhere to my belief that everyone has the ability to either make or break things; it's your choice, choose wisely. And what's stopping me from looking at things in that perspective? The consequences worry me. They affect me, they affect you, they affect everyone. How then can I not think of the consequences and behave in an irrational manner when everyone will be affected? Consequences, I hate that word. Everything suddenly seems to be laden with responsibility once you associate them with this word. Responsibility and cautiousness that you cannot escape from.

No, not now.

Lifting away that mentality that something must come out of what I'm going through... makes me feel a lot better already. I would like to elaborate just a little more, but it's 2.36 a.m. now and I have an eight-thirty lecture in just a few hours, so... maybe tomorrow during my 6-hour (mighty) long break.

Thanks guys!

Pictures from the last two weeks.

From Weijun's belated birthday celebrations:

I have friends who can draw really well #1 : Ruilong! Weijun's birthday cake; decorated it at The Icing Room.

I know her hands were probably shaking at her palms were perspiring, but still, she makes it look so easy!

Lighting up all that candles wasn't as easy a task as I'd thought it to be. Our surprise for Weijun flopped when he entered the room halfway while we were lighting up the candles. Ha.

All of us, but Yenling's not in the picture!

Siao's pre-21st celebrations:

Siao's (expensive) birthday treat; it came up to about $80/pax but there's a 15% discount for UOB credit cards. Took me awhile to find Shangri La, and some time to find my way to the restaurant. Thank you siao eh!

Making her first birthday wish for the year. Love you much! We'll go skating again once the weather clears up and I'm not sooo busy with school stuff okay!

I have friends who can really draw well #2: Shirleen Sim. I hope I'd be able to decorate a cake as nicely as my friends do if there is a need for me to do so one day.

Windsurf Orientation:

Sucked the life out of me; being in the sun almost the entire day, but I am so glad that it is finally over (for the year at least)!

us, from the morning session. Can you spot a few familiar faces? Like Choonyan who's standing right beside me... and Ruilong, your good friend Kengfoo...

Titus and his prep talk.

the conditions on the day were quite ideal for beginners; everyone seemed comfortable enough doing what they were doing on the boards.

waiting for Mingle's simulator session to end. Jack, Shunxiang, Shiqi and me!

mingle and an ang-moh guy on the simulator, he looks like a surfer, don't you think?

Titus having a go on my bubblegum board and orange sail!