Someone hates me

I used to think I wouldn't mind what people think of me, but today, I learnt that I am in fact, very concerned about how people look at me, maybe just some random aspect of me that is. The lexical choices that some people make with regard to me, hurts.

Hate; a word associated with so much negativity, is used to describe how someone feels towards me. Ouch. For someone who smiles to you while you're looking, and then stabbing you in the back when you're not, double ouch.

:(

Fishing Frenzy!

I haven't been downloading iPhone applications for the longest time ever, but I'm so glad I did today. Science lecture was boring and almost put me to sleep; even the tutor admitted he didn't know what he was talking about at different intervals throughout the lecture.

And at times like that, instead of falling asleep, I whipped out my trusty iPhone and began downloading applications faster than the lecturer could go on to the next slide. Not hard to guess which application got me hooked this time round; I was tilting and shaking my iPhone sideways, forward and backward, rocking back and forth trying to fish my way past the first level during lecture.

hard at work okay!

Came back to my room and continued with it.

roomie said she's never seen me so engrossed before ha.

And my hard work paid off! I completed all 12 levels of the game... like after an hour of trying. Okay I know this is a totally pointless entry and I really should be studying instead... but really, it's so fun you should try it and get hooked too!

Oh. I made my own dinner for the first time since the start of the semester. Campbell's Mushroom with Roasted Garlic Soup, paired with mashed-up bits of Hup Seng's sugar crackers. Sounds like a totally odd combination? Tasted like one... but I like it. I always like the oddest things in life.

傻笑

sai-naing at the buffet table with half of KTOWY last Friday evening.

I think it's become sort of like a bi-monthly affair, this Sakae Supper Sushi (wow alliteration!) Buffet thing. Only 4 of us turned up this time round; the rest were either busy with school work, too cash-strapped, or too busy with some other businesses. I liked 4. Apart from eating, we talked about problems in school; the guys just started their first years in university not too long ago and JM's not doing too well, there's probably a lot of getting used to for them. None of them were too used to my new hair; wenyun said I look like a butch, and jm said I look like a preppy Jap boy. I love this bunch a lot, I think. If not, I'd have snapped at them for telling me I look like a boy two times over.

Similans here I come!

No more shopping sprees, no more binge-eating or drinking...

I will save to dive!

So excited!

Are you ready?

I could be optimistic about a million and one things, and yet always remain so skeptical about one particular issue.

The hairdresser over-trimmed my hair and I look like a butch now (yes I do look like one now, in case you're wondering)? It's alright, my hair will grow back. Results aren't as ideal as what I've expected of myself? No worries, I always have the next semester to pull it up. Am not getting the feel of what it's like to plane on the windsurf board? No problem, the wind will pick up in time. Subway's out of my favourite White Chip Macademia Nuts Cookie? It's okay, I can always settle for Chocolate Chip. You get the gist, almost every other thing, except for the big L word.

Love. I feel like I really shouldn't talk about it, because I don't seem to know what's it about anymore... and it's funny how someone who has forgotten all about love, wants to experience it so badly. No?

I generally share different views with the people that I've talked to about this. I still adhere to my belief that everyone has the ability to either make or break things; it's your choice, choose wisely. And what's stopping me from looking at things in that perspective? The consequences worry me. They affect me, they affect you, they affect everyone. How then can I not think of the consequences and behave in an irrational manner when everyone will be affected? Consequences, I hate that word. Everything suddenly seems to be laden with responsibility once you associate them with this word. Responsibility and cautiousness that you cannot escape from.

No, not now.

Lifting away that mentality that something must come out of what I'm going through... makes me feel a lot better already. I would like to elaborate just a little more, but it's 2.36 a.m. now and I have an eight-thirty lecture in just a few hours, so... maybe tomorrow during my 6-hour (mighty) long break.

Thanks guys!

Pictures from the last two weeks.

From Weijun's belated birthday celebrations:

I have friends who can draw really well #1 : Ruilong! Weijun's birthday cake; decorated it at The Icing Room.

I know her hands were probably shaking at her palms were perspiring, but still, she makes it look so easy!

Lighting up all that candles wasn't as easy a task as I'd thought it to be. Our surprise for Weijun flopped when he entered the room halfway while we were lighting up the candles. Ha.

All of us, but Yenling's not in the picture!

Siao's pre-21st celebrations:

Siao's (expensive) birthday treat; it came up to about $80/pax but there's a 15% discount for UOB credit cards. Took me awhile to find Shangri La, and some time to find my way to the restaurant. Thank you siao eh!

Making her first birthday wish for the year. Love you much! We'll go skating again once the weather clears up and I'm not sooo busy with school stuff okay!

I have friends who can really draw well #2: Shirleen Sim. I hope I'd be able to decorate a cake as nicely as my friends do if there is a need for me to do so one day.

Windsurf Orientation:

Sucked the life out of me; being in the sun almost the entire day, but I am so glad that it is finally over (for the year at least)!

us, from the morning session. Can you spot a few familiar faces? Like Choonyan who's standing right beside me... and Ruilong, your good friend Kengfoo...

Titus and his prep talk.

the conditions on the day were quite ideal for beginners; everyone seemed comfortable enough doing what they were doing on the boards.

waiting for Mingle's simulator session to end. Jack, Shunxiang, Shiqi and me!

mingle and an ang-moh guy on the simulator, he looks like a surfer, don't you think?

Titus having a go on my bubblegum board and orange sail!