Thursday, October 28, 2010

28 October 2010

Dear whoever's reading,

Today I decided to take my P-plate down.
I also decided to replace Thomas Ong with my own photo as display picture in MSN messenger; cannot bluff people say I am Thomas Ong liao.

And finally, I saw didi's latest pictures on Facebook; one of which was captioned: Five Mozambique policemen (including one woman), with rifles strapped around their shoulders, shoved us into an alley and extorted money from us (three of us) in broad daylight.






Goodness that is so scary. I hope he stays safe whichever part of the world he is at now. Miss him loads.

these are cute!


Explosm dolls!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

You know what you gotta do when life gets you down?

Ditzy Dory:
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming swimming swimming
What do we do we swim swim swim
Oh ho ho how I love to swim
When you want to swim you want to swim

That's a red-eared slider (terrapin) that I saw at Sungei Buloh Nature Reserve the other day. I learnt that it's a non-native invasive species that's actually chasing away the local species of terrapins by competing with them for food (and other whatnots); so it's not such a great idea to buy these cute little fellows from petshops when they're cute and tiny only to release them when they've grown much bigger (and are not so cute anymore) into public ponds anymore. If only I'd known back then...

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

#20 The one that broke your heart the hardest



I don't know about you, but I definitely agree with the lyrics of this song.

The person who is #20 of this writing challenge happens to be my first boyfriend, that infamous Barney (it's actually Bryane, but I thought Barney was a cute rearrangement of the spelling and it's stuck since). We dated for two years; when I was in secondary three and four and everything was fine and dandy (I'd really liked how he was musically-inclined), until the pre-breakup period; everything's always fine until something big happens. I remember how he'd wanted to break up with me a few weeks before the O's (what a jerk!) but was too afraid to say it, so I'd helped him with the verbalizing over the phone. Oh, and when I asked if there's a third person involved, guess what he said? Nope, no third party; it's his parents - they want him to have a Christian girlfriend. What a convenient excuse.

Before morning assembly the next day, I opened the school locker, where I'd kept all the neoprints that we've taken wasted our money on and little presents that he's given me over the two years, took all of it out and chucked them into the bin. I hesitated for just a short little while before I put them away, but ultimately, I made sure all of it went into the bin before it was time for flag-raising.

Thankfully, I managed to cope surprisingly well at the initial stages right after the breakup; by putting more effort into the final preparation for the O's. Even more thankfully, my results weren't too badly affected; in fact, they turned out to be much better than what I'd anticipated. On a side note, I like to give myself a pat on the back occasionally for being rational like that even at the lowest points of my life.

But things went downhill after O's; for the next 6 months at least. There was no longer anything that I could work towards in the short term; since all I could do was wait for the release of my results and the start of my first semester at TP, so I harped on the negative emotions quite a fair bit. Not only did I think about how nice it'd be if we could get back together, but I'd also acted on it. I pestered him on the phone, kept a diary for him even after things were over between us... and did many other silly things you'd expect a lovelorn 16 year-old girl to after her first breakup. I was desperate.

A few months after our breakup and all the stupid things I did in the name of love, I spotted him with a girl at Parkway Parade - I took it to be his new girlfriend since they were holding hands and all, and I went home to bawl my eyes out after. At 16, that was my first brush with betrayal in relationships, and I didn't like it one bit. That was the time when I told myself this has got to stop; he's just not the one, get over it girl. I entered poly soon after and life got tonnes better instantaneously.

I do not keep in contact with him any longer; he became suspiciously nice after he broke up with said girl in the previous paragraph and I didn't like where things were headed. It's inevitable that I'll have to receive my first painful relationship lessons one time or other, and it's happened that he's just the one to give me those lessons. I used to detest him a lot after my 'lovelorn period', for the lies and betrayal of trust, for dropping such a big bomb on me just before the most important exams of my life, and for being happy with a new partner when I was sad and miserable, but... ...not anymore! I am so much more than that pettiness, and besides, I bet I'm living a much more fulfilling life than he is now.

ps. I find it funny that the Barney that I've been talking about of late is my favourite character on HIMYM, and that he represents the exact opposite of what my first boyfriend, Barney is.

Happy 22nd, dear girls...










Wednesday, October 20, 2010

as of now

Tonight, I learnt to feel a lot more for something that's always been close to my heart; something that's been taken for granted for the longest period of time. I wish I can find like-minded people to talk about these issues soon. After all the horrible deadlines are over, maybe. 


And of a separate matter, I really don't know if it'll continue to work. I'm tired of non-rationalization; and I am not apologetic if you guys think I'm a mild manifestation of Sheldon Cooper in real life (sans the intellectual capacity, of course), someone's got to play the devil's advocate, right?


ps. don't you hate the ambiguity in entries like these? i love it.

Monday, October 18, 2010

the only thing that makes me want to curse and swear real bad.



i hate it so, so much.
spent the entire afternoon puking (and trying to even after there's nothing left in my stomach), wishing that i could just faint right there, breaking out in cold sweat and curling into a ball on the cold, hard floor. damned!

note to self: please get a heat pack, ginger tea to prep yourself for this disgusting cycle next month.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

When in Rome

This is severely overdue, considering the trip's been over for more than 3 months.

I can't remember every single detail (maybe not even close) of the few places that I've been to; not including the 'highlights' (i.e. boarding a train thinking that it'd bring us to Belgium but ended up in Switzerland eventually ahem*), but I do have very fond (and maybe personal too) memories of Italy.

St. Giovanni; located within close proximity from where we were staying


Other than the very rude passenger service staff at the train station, everyone else that we've met in Rome were super nice. When we had the hardest of times trying to locate our hotel, the locals whom we've asked directions from were eager to help, despite the language barrier. I remember walking into a little travel agency that was manned by an elderly lady to ask for directions to our hotel, Domus Sessoriana. When she realized we couldn't really understand what she's saying, she even got up from her very comfortable seat, walked out of the door and pointed/gestured to the place where she was referring to; gesturing in the form of a big building, and repetitively saying the term "Accanto! Accanto!" to which we picked up nothing despite her friendliness and helpfulness. When we finally found the place much later, I learnt that she was actually referring to a church, and a little green door that's located just beside it (accanto!)

More on our getting lost later.


In our 3 days in Rome, we visited a few touristy spots such as, the Colosseum (my first ancient world wonder), Fontana di Trevi (my favourite fountain in the world for now), Vatican City, some museums where we sent postcards back home, the Pantheon, Piazza di Spagna, and probably a few other tourist hot spots that we didn't even know are hot spots.

At the Colosseum:

how did gladiators manage to run about with wild beasts in the past in this little arena? 

that's F. anyway, i'm very ashamed to admit that i can't remember much of what i heard from the audio guide :x

the gladiators' entrance

really old

big spaces that make me go phwar




and finally, from the outside

Following the Colosseum was the Trevi Fountain. Despite the hordes of tourists that were surrounding the fountain, taking pictures of/with it and doing other what-nots, I was still super mesmerized by its beauty. I lack the knowledge to appreciate this fountain as an artistic/architectural achievement, but, at a more superficial level (from which I'm definitely not giving enough credit to), in layman's terms, phwar is all I can think of whenever I think of this fountain. Beautiful.





beautiful by night too


We dropped by the Pantheon but it was closed for restoration works, so the place looked quite horrible; half of the columns were covered by construction ladders, green nets and other ugly stuff. We were not very lucky in a sense.

And... back to the part on us trying to locate our hotel.

Of the 3 places in Italy that we've visited, Rome left the most memorable impression on me because it was only here that we managed to 'miss' our hotel right under our noses, like maybe a thousand times. After getting out of the train station and checking directions from the owner of a little news-stand, we were glad to find our hotel wasn't too far away from where we were. He pointed to a giant archway that stood a few hundred metres away, and told us to turn right when we've passed that archway. Sounds impossible to miss right? Wrong. 

We expected the hotel to be a building that stands on its own, but there was no such building when we passed the archway. Instead, there was a church (and of course you wouldn't the hotel to be part of the church right? Wrong but more on that later). And an old man who came running towards us; he was shouting loudly and angrily with his hands up in the air. I was so afraid as a result of my ignorance that I didn't even take a second better look at him before I assumed and decided that this old man's a racist who hates Asians, and I told F to "run for our lives!".

Worst.mistake.ever. I really hated myself for that afterwards.

We ended up wandering the same few streets and some of the alleys for the next two hours in the sweltering heat, still trying to find out how to get to our hotel from the locals. We walked and walked until we were so sweaty and restless, until a local grocer said something like "the green door and something-something" in a mishmash of Italian and English. The only green door we saw across the street was a little part of the church; that made me have some reservations about crossing the street; I mean, who would think that the church and the hotel are related right? Besides, the angry old man was there so I still had my reservations about crossing the road and I really wasn't looking forward to having him come after us again.

As you can probably imagine by now, the old man was not as angry or racist as we thought he were. When he saw us come back the second time, he didn't come running towards us but instead, he smiled broadly and said in a mishmash of English and Italian that he wanted to direct us to the hotel when he first saw us with our luggage, almost 2 hours ago. Awwwwwwwwwwwwww man. Don't you feel like kicking me?! I felt like an total idiot, told him I'm sorry that I thought he was angry with us when he's clearly not; to which he just replied "no no no..." with a smile and was probably thinking to himself, what silly tourists these two young asian girls are.


When we caught him sweeping the church grounds again the next day, we went up to him and talked to him for a bit before leaving him with a merlion keychain that I brought over (so that I can give them to nice people whom I meet on this trip; gave another one to a train ticketing lady in some part of Italy/Paris too and she was really happy about it); you can't really see it from this picture but that was what's clenched in his fist. I saw a sign that's displayed on another of his chairs that said something like "help me get home" (in English), so I guess he's probably not local?

I still feel guilt whenever I look at this picture now or think of the incident, and sure, I've had my laughs about it; but hey, it also reminds me to stay open to ideas and not be such a damned narrow-minded individual who comes up with inaccurate stereotypes of people all the time! And especially so after multicultural lessons in school.

Anyway, to prove my point of how easily the hotel entrance could go unnoticed, in the picture below, look at the bottom right hand corner. It's the green door on the left. You really can't blame me for noticing right?! I think it'll be a good idea for them to invest in a bigger signage. 



End of hotel-hunting story. We visited Vatican City next, and... the crowds were absolutely crazy and killed all moods. Apparently there was some event going on.. just look at the people involved in this religious session. I admire people for the devotion they have towards their religions; braving heat waves and swarming masses of bodies in a confined space just so that they can gather to hear the pope speak, I'll never be able to do something like that. I can't help it if you think I know nothing about devotion to faith; you're right.






After we came out of St Pietro's, we drank from one of those roadside water fountains and I was pleasantly surprised to find that the water that came out from those tiny pipes are chilled! It was the best thing to have on such a hot day, right after a gelato cone of course.


And here's a picture of us standing on the Angelo Bridge; Angel with the whips erected right behind us. And now that I think about it, whips.. how kinky. *ahem*

Some other kinky stuff that were done inside the Vatican Museum...


So many of the places that we visited were under construction that it got a little frustrating at times; here's a part of the museum exterior under construction too.

And this shot-to-death picture of the spiral staircase that will be taken by nearly every tourist who exits the museum via this route.



Piazza di Spagna; while we were on our hunt for boutiques. Had absolutely no idea where this place was when we took this picture.


Pretty gate just outside our hotel; with many pieces of colourful rocks entwined in those metal wires. 


And finally, here's one last picture of us on the night train from Rome to Milan; our 2-hour stopover station before heading to Zurich!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

paint

We've just gotten back from a day's dives, the group of us, and we were settling down quite comfortably in our 'private lounge'. A little stilt house that's raised slightly above sea level with a cozy interior; dim but warm lights were lit and hung on the walls and the water below was clear in a shade of deep azure and reflected shimmery patterns onto the straw ceiling, it was the perfect place to end our day. While we were conversing and laughing at total ease in the comfort of the most chillax hammocks that we've ever come across, we heard whistling and clicking sounds from below. Following the rush of excitement, we looked down and saw the most amazing thing. Dolphins. They've come to play; and were darting in and out quickly of those stilts while waiting for us to join them in their joyous frolic in the shallow waters.

I'd almost taken the plunge, and maybe I did, but I can't remember for the life of me what happened after. It's dreams like such that make me not want to wake up.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

30-day writing challenge

I saw this on someone's blog and I thought it'll be quite a fun thing to embark on. I'll most probably not go according to the order below though because I'll probably be super stuck at some particular days if I do.
I don't think I'll ever get round to finishing this challenge... definitely not now! 


Day 1 - You best friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 - Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

My first touch-rug match and rainbow xlbs

Last week, I watched my first touch rugby match in school... and the second one this Monday. NTU was up against NUS and Jol B was playing in the team so we decided to head down to lend some support and show some love, despite knowing nearly nothing about the sport. NTU players are in blue, and NUS ones are in orange.

Spectators in action:

i can't help but think bout what you said about your eyeliner in the morning lol

And the touch rug girls in action:




I really should have brought out my zoom lens, but I didn't... so that explains the tiny-ness of the people in all the above pictures.

And here's us again, while waiting for Jolb to get back to the grandstand.

Star-girl:

Maths majors and current roomies:

We are awesome yay.

I'm really still quite clueless about the game though :x

And... I met up with Siaos for dinner on Wednesday. As friends who love all things colourful, we knew we had to try the rainbow xiao long baos that we've been seeing in advertisements from all over, together! So, we headed down to Paradise Dynasty at Ion Orchard (4th level) after her lessons've finally ended for the day.


White - Original; average, nothing mind-blowing. It was the only flavour that needs to be dipped in the vinegar and eaten with the shredded ginger.
Green - Ginseng; there was the subtle taste of ginseng that I thought complemented the broth rather well. Slightly more 'soupy' than the other flavours.
Light Grey - Garlic; an extra garlicky taste in the usual broth. Added a little 蒜茸香to the otherwise normal-tasting broth in the little buns.
Orange - Crab roe; strong taste of crab roe, not really for people who don't like seafood-related food I guess. I'll gladly help you eat yours if you're not a seafood person :p
Beige - Foie gras; a little oilier than the others, but no less yummy. I can't really remember what foie gras tastes like, but this adds a nice little oopmh to the broth too. I think this is Siao's favourite of the night.
Pink - Szechuan; a.k.a. don't be fooled by the harmless appearance. This is one little spicy bun!
Yellow - Cheese; what I thought was the weirdest flavour of all, but still worth a try!
Dark grey (middle) - Black truffle; mmm.. mushroomy?

I think it's a great idea that they're coming up with all these new and exciting flavours and changing the idea that things should always remain the same; if you can't beat the longtimers (i.e. Ding Tai Feng & Crystal Jade) in terms of taste, you can at least try to entice customers with greater variety and aesthetic appeal since we all love variety!

Other than the rainbow xlbs, we also ordered some side dishes; the bamboo shoots (because we both love shoots!), shredded potato and capsicum (nothing to shout about) and drunken chicken (ooooh the taste of alcohol was really strong). I thought the prices were fairly reasonable... or maybe just slightly more expensive than the usual xlb meals.

Anyway, I had a great time catching up with Siaos and listening to her talk about her current love interest from school! We've all been so busy with work/school recently that it's so hard to arrange for meet ups.

Just to end the post with, here's a picture of her eating as usual:

It was during one of those conversations where we were disagreeing again with each other's views that I got a clearer understanding of ...